Questioning the Purpose of Life

Im sure I am not the only one who recall near death experiences. Incidents which happen in life, where you stop and say, wow, I could have died just then. There are 4 of these incident I recall often in my life.

The first was told to me as I was only 2 weeks old. My mother found me blue and lifeless, and peaceful without struggle in my bassinet. I had quit breathing and was moments from death. She, not knowing what to do, took me and ran , out into the cold air where snow was on the ground in freezing temperatures. She believed the shock of the coldness revived me as I gasped for air and came back to life. As she told the story to the Dr, he believe I had survived what many babies do not, sudden infant death. Her timing in finding me on the verge, saved my life.


The next incident happened when I was 4. I remember it so clear to this day. I was walking across a street with my family looking one way, but not in the direction of the oncoming traffic.
I started to cross, and father put out his hand in the same moment a car went inches from hitting me. Even at the young age of 4 I knew it would have been a serious event if not one that would have caused my death.

The 3rd was when I was driving to the hospital where I worked. It was 430 in the morning. The road was damp and I was in a hurry. I could see ahead,  a car delivering news papers that was making a left hand turn, but knew surely they would wait for me, as I was  approaching. They were not paying attention and turned directly in front of me, which left me 2 choices. One hit them almost head on, or 2, apply my breaks to avoid hitting them. I applied my break which put my car in a spin and I went off the side of the road headed straight for a telephone poll directly in my path. I knew I would hit the pole, so I said a quick prayer and in the blink of a moment, my tire stuck in the ditch and turned my car the opposite direction. Thank you God, was all I was able to say, due to the fact I was in complete shock.

The 4th time was in 1986, when I was diagnosed with a malignant tumor which had metastasized outside the tumor wall. I had surgery and 6 weeks of radiation and cobalt treatments.

All 4 of those could have gone either way. Which leads me in this stage of my life to reflect that I am alive and healthy. Four times the devil tried to take me, maybe more that I was not aware of,
but these 4 times I recall and ponder. I know there is a purpose in my life, maybe I have already achieved His will for me somehow in my work as a nurse touching someones life in a way to show them Gods love, or maybe the purpose is still to come, that has not been revealed. I will be ready for You to use me Lord, whatever you have in store for your humble servant to lead and guide me in use for Your glory.

The Day A Life Was Saved

I have not written this story to be boastful or to show any person that I did anything special. Its just that I did something, a long time ago. That person is now 12 years old, a beautiful young woman. Twelve years and 6 months ago that person was the same person they are today.

I got a call from my daughter that her friend was pregnant and she was going to get an abortion at 1:30 that afternoon. I called a group of friends to gather and pray that somehow she would change her mind and not go through with it. I was feeling peace that somehow God would intervene.

I called her at 1:15 just as she was walking out the door. She told me later she almost didn't answer the phone as she was running late for her appointment.

She said she had no other choice, she had made up her mind and needed to leave immediatly.
I told her just take a minute and feel all the prayers that were coming in for her. Then I said I had called a group of pray warriors to ask for divine intervention, for her to not go through with her decision. I reassured her I loved her regardless of her decision, but there was a little life in her, and many people who dont even know her are praying at this very moment that she change her mind. She started sobbing and said,"thank you, but I have to leave."

I left crying myself, thinking, oh Lord, I guess I failed. Maybe my faith wasn't strong enough, maybe I was too late. If only I had known sooner I could have gone and talked to her personally rather then on the phone.

Two hours later, I got a call from her. She said she changed her mind, and she hoped she wasnt making a mistake. But she was going to go through with the pregnancy even though she felt she was unprepared, and hadn't taken care of her health enough to have a healthy baby.

I called back my prayer warriors and told them God intervened and a life was saved.

I got a call from her a year later and she thanked me and said she loved her daughter so much, she couldn't even imagine what she was thinking. I told her it wasn't me, it was the power of prayer and the love from a God who knew she would do the right thing and a God who also knew that baby, before she was born and loved her too.

She calls me now and then with updates on her daughter and the nightmare of her almost wrong decision, and her gratitude for a wonderful God.

Molly Hightower

http://mollyinhaiti.blogspot.com/

She last posted on my birthday Dec 30th. She died in the earthquake in Haiti 2 days ago, along with many others. Young and old, non discriminating.

My mind cant stop from thinking of the tremendous loss of such a young, beautiful girl, and the future she left behind. The good she did on this earth, in her short life and the reason it has ended.
We all question for answers when lives are cut short, that to us mortals seems, unfair. As we think we know best, and better then God with such matters.

My mind is at peace looking at her blog, seeing her picture and seeing beyond the picture to the purity in her heart, a selfless heart. One who gave to the end, and did it all in love.

God bless you Molly, God bless your family, all the lives you touched and for touching my life with your words and life. I hope to meet you again and will strive to be a better person, because of your short life and all the good you did while you lived.

Avatar Critique

I watched Avatar last night after I heard huge raves about this movie. When it started I right away discovered the angle they were getting at. America is bad, we are greedy motivated by money at any cost. I am speaking from an American point of view as this movie went out to the world. What must the producers, the makers of this movie be thinking? When we are in a time of war, with many countries chomping at the bit to see our demise, and at this very moment the enemy plotting to see us fall. As the movie went on, people were cheering at the death of our Marines as they were wiped out, one by one as sheer evil beings, by alien killing machines, in a scene reminiscent of early Americans killing Indians at Custer's last stand. Yes, America has made mistakes. Yes, we were driven by greed at times. But in a time of war, when we should be unitizing as a strong country lets change the hearts of the world, but not increase the hatred against it. Shame on you again, Hollywood. Shame on you all the people who pay to go see this propaganda.

Moonset and Sunrise Over the Pacific
by CarolSue



You tarry in the western sky
a traveler be with weary eyes.
You fullness shines a glowing might,
upon the sea your lesser light.

Oh Brighness from the other side
You wake the world with morning tide.
I'm glad you share your light with me,
for I'm another traveler be.

You're busy waking up the world
while I am drifting while I'm hurled
below the oceans foaming wave,
to come again, another day.

You've been my steadfast friend tis true,
But I would never dare to rule,
Except to brighten up the path
of some lone sailor gale and mast.

My time is done, but we will play,
Another rhyme, another day.
And frolic in the day and midst,
and always glow with heavens glimpse.

The Green Wallet

To the person who owned this wallet, whom I will never meet. Let me tell you the story.It was New Years Eve, the busiest day of the year to go shopping. I was late for an appointment and had to take my daughter into the store to get a few groceries. It was pouring down rain, the wind was blowing and all I wanted to do was be done with Portland and get back to my warm home away from the city. We decided we would be faster to just carry our bags by hand and run to the car without the cart. The gentleman who checked us out was very kind and patient, with my daughter who was using the auto check out for 15 items or less, for her 30 items or more. When we left the store to run to my car, I saw your wallet laying in the rain, and for a brief second I thought to leave it and let someone else deal with it who had more time but hopefully honest. But then the face of a desperate woman who might have owned the wallet flashed through my mind. I thought what would someone else do, if that would have been mine. So I did the only thing I could have or would have done, picked up your wallet, balanced my daughters groceries in my hands and ran back into the store. I found the nice checker who had an honest face and said, "sir, sir, someone lost this green wallet can you find who it belongs to, PLEASE!" He turned around and smiled at me, not knowing if he was smiling because I was making a spectacle of myself being dripping wet, or that I was yelling to get his attention or that he was just a kind man, who had compassion for a yelling, dripping wet woman. I knew the wallet was safe with him because he had such an honest face and was so helpful with our checkout and my need to rush and my frustration with my daughter who couldn't find her Safeway savings card as he had to use his to get her the discount after I told him I was too much in a hurry for her to dig through her purse.

When I left the store the second time, the hood of my coat flew back from the wind and the rain fell on my face and I looked up and said, "God, you are so mysterious, I don't know your ways, but thats ok, I appreciate you smiling down on me and that deserves a smile back." I'm not sure why I was picked to find the wallet, but I know God knows. Maybe you, the owner of the green wallet needed to know for you New Year, that there is hope in humanity. God knew I would do the right thing, but maybe you have lost faith in people, I don't know, maybe never will. But will always remember the green wallet the rain and wind in my face, and the feeling of joy in my heart, and the excitement of what the New Year holds ahead.